Monday, March 10, 2008

Last 19 hours...

So it is time to go back to Brasil again. These are my last hours in Ann Arbor. In this moment I am much more sad than anxious. Sad not because I don't want to go back to Brasil, but because I had to say "goodbye" to a lot of people I will surely miss. I never thought it would be so difficult to go back home.

I can say for sure, that the time I spent here will never be forgotten. It was one of the most amazing, and challenging experiences in my life. I am sure I am not the same Gustavo that left Brasil almost 10 months ago. When I arrived in Ann Arbor, I was totally alone, I did not knew anyone, and had no place to stay but a hotel room. It was fun to start everything from 'zero', but it was not easy. I survived more than one month without having a computer, and almost three months without Internet at home. I could barely understand what people said to me, and it was almost impossible to follow conversations. I lived totally alone for 2 months, and I had to learn how to cook basic stuff, and how to take care of my place (that is fun actually). During these 2 months there were days when I talked to no one at all... Many days without saying a simple word to anybody. And sometimes I felt really depressed... I also had a hurting heart, that was still trying to heal...

A lot changed after that. I don't know if all the changes were for the good though, but I learned a lot here. My cooking skills have improved a little bit (I guess I have 2 points of cooking, instead of just one). Now I am able to follow most of the conversations I hear, and I had not problem in understanding people talking in English anymore. My heart is fully healed now, and ready for the nearby future... I have met a bunch of people. Some of them just passed through my life, and I am sure I will never hear about them anymore. People that I thought were friends, but turned to be a great disappointment. And people who I will remember through all my life, and I really hope to meet again someday...

My last few days here showed my a critical fault in my personality, and something that must be changed at all costs.

My view about the United States, and the Americans had changed totally while I was here too. But I will tell about it in another post, in the near future.

I just wanted the World to be a smaller place...

1 comment:

|3run0 said...

Does it mean you will celebrate Talk like a physicist day in the airplane? A few suggestions:

'Fasten your seatbelts! The airflow over the wings is becoming increasingly non-laminar'

'I can only call this food as a 1st order approximation'

'The airplane will now asymptotically approach the runway'